12.13.14 - today began a NEW day. not just a great day, but an incredible one. 12-13-14: this date will only come once a century and one i will never forget.
for curiosity’s sake, i calculated how long its been. 719 days of incredible stress. i was surprised by how high the number was and even had to recalculate it, just to double check. yep, it was right. it has been 719 from when i began to bleed heavily at month 5 of pregnancy and began bedrest. when i birthed our baby by c-section, he and i struggled for life. i began to hemorrhage and they couldn’t stop it. at the same time, when they gave our sweet one O2 in the delivery room, his stomach, and not his lungs, inflated. something was seriously wrong. the surgeon told my husband that they didn’t know whether our baby would make it and she rushed into surgery. we both walked on the thin border of life while the emotional weight of it all laid heaviest on my husband who was cognizant of the stakes. God answered the prayers of many and my bleeding stopped the following day after much blood loss. baby was in the NICU for 31 days with multiple major surgeries, chest tubes, a million tubes coming out of his body... without being able to be held by the aching arms of mama or dada for so long. in his little life, he has had countless surgeries, xrays, MRIs, swallow studies, cerebral shunt placement surgery, drugs, drugs, and more drugs, a tight schedule for gtube feedings, 25 plus doctors and therapist visits all year long… and this brings us to today. upon seeing that 719 number, my bones and spirit concurred, “yes, THAT’S why you’re so tired.” ha!
why was yesterday incredible?
it was page one of a new chapter. Read more...